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A pair of almond eyes!

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Each raindrop that hits the window glass, it fills up the room with a sudden melancholy. Here I am, silent, trying to hear what the noises are about. People say love strikes you like lightening, a sudden wave rushes down your spine, ecstasy fills the air you breathe and you go singing all day long. Falling in love is like a fairy tale coming true. Each moment you wish that person to be right next to you. She is the first thought in the morning, the smile that persists on your lips and the last kiss of the night. She is a lifetime with a happy ending.Yet I’m trying to figure out the essence of everything, her innocence is what troubles me the most. He first saw her on a moon light. Soon a foreign emotion clouds his eyes…

He ‘was welcomed with her eyes

He gazed at her so much,

Her beauteous brown almond eyes

Made him melt…

He said it will work out,

Though she had her doubts.

He climbed inside her skin

And made all the promises

He made castles beside the sea

Little did she know those castles were of mud.

He didn’t leave till she said yes.

The sands of time slipped by,

She fell in love the day he fell out of it….

 

All the promises he made

Stood like a double headed sword

Ripping her mind and soul apart

Demons stole her breaths, she survived.

Denials pounded through her mind,

Emptiness echoed through her heart

Moments were filled with pain

She still fell for him every morning.

 

Time flew,wedding bells ringing.

She kept the vows. She knew what it meant to say  “yes”.

When they said ‘Love is what that binds you both’,

She wondered was that ‘love’ that suffocated her?

He bent down to slide the ring in her finger. He smiled.

He was cold as ice,

She couldn’t find love in his eyes.

Darkness covering her like a blanket

Gliding deep in to her thoughts,

Yet she smiled back.

Both carried the weight of the ring forever

With no fairy tale ending…

 

 

 

 

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Moments…

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“Welcome to the real world, it sucks! You gonna love it”… I cannot help but remember this famous dialogue from the F.R.I.E.N.D.S tv series when Rachel is all set to be independent.

Every now and then we run out of feeling something for the first time. You wait for quite a time for precious things to happen- may be getting a job, outing with friends, confessing your love, speaking before the crowd, dancing on stage, holding hands or the first kiss….We have a preconceived idea about how it’s going to be and how we will react to it….It happens just the same, all of it, but you know it’s just in a split of second it’s all gone…The BEST MOMENTS… And it’ll remains as memories for life time!

Moments, they don’t last in time frames; it’s just our mind contemplating over and over. That’s the thing about growing up. We are coming down the list of the first time magical incidents happen to us. The sad part is we just have a handful of them and the second time doesn’t feel the same way.  Most of the times we don’t even realize it’s happening to us. Long after when it’s gone, we come to believe that was something special. I know, it’s the worst part 😦

Moments, long gone and dead, they have the ability to trigger in you the lost love, the futile excitement or the capabilities you once had.  Keeping up with the pace of life, we usually forget the essence of our being, the person we used to be, the things that make us happy or the goal of our lives. Life keeps rushing with bundles of happy moments lying on the sideways; it’s for you to open it.

Allow yourself to feel love, keep the windows to your heart open, celebrate success after a project, have someone you can say ‘I love you’ to, dance in the pouring rain, have 2am talks, send flowers to your beloved sitting miles across, watch the sunrise above the sea. It is in these tiny moments life exists.

When you turn 60, you would sit on the armchair with watery eyes, thinking about each tiny atom that made you. Nobody has it all right, nobody has everything to smile at, and we do have painful memories, a lot… But those difficult moments that you survived are the stories that stars sing to the world, these are the ones world knows you by, they make who you are today.

Live life by moments not by ages… Make stories that your grandchildren would love listening; make you own life worth watching.

As I embark my journey, these thoughts are going to help me in the long run to accept the fact that each day of life is a dynamic development and this determination will help me create wonders wherever I go. I still remember the day 4 yrs back, I entered college, away from home. Similar kind of fear, happiness and anxiety, it feels almost the same but the difference is that I am more optimistic, mature and have faith in myself. In spite of being aware of the fact that this journey is going to be bumpy, I’m ready to take the challenges that stop by.

All set for a new journey..

Here, I say Au revoir to the past and bonjour to a new start…

Stay Happy 🙂 😀 and remember the best moments are captured in blurred pictures….. ❤

PS: I’ve got a whole bunch of new friends.. Lol, they’re weirder than me 😛

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Wild Thoughts! #1

There is always a crashing point or threshold, initially it was difficult taking me out of wreck, but now I write.. As I write with my half chewed pencil in this lonely night, my heart thumping..  I never thought I will write so much in two weeks.. It’s like a way of cleaning up. Writing has always given me a sense of satisfaction..It is like a drug I can’t live without.

(I’m not bragging. Just stating a fact)

I know my thoughts are wilder than my dreams. Getting lost in the wild has its own benefits. It’s something you don’t get by sitting in room and watching television, it’s nothing but EXPERIENCE. And here comes my questions: P

I always wondered how mirage’s can fool me again and again every single time. How can my eyes, my intellect be wrong? And you know what is worse than that?

I used to feel everyone are unique but the more closely I scan meticulously the more similarities are disclosed. May be everyone are different in the way they think, the things they do and stuff. But deep inside everyone are amazingly talented actors, their versatility reflects from the fact that they change roles ever single minute and every single seconds. And People’s love for romance, humor, love and sadness are immense. Fooling one another and faking the love is their favorite past time.

I wonder what the world is… I always wanted to ditch the pretenses that we live in and I don’t get why the world wants us to conform to its norm. Why not abandon the fakeness and toxicities behind? Why can’t people set aside their prejudices and listen?

Ultimately, we’re all snowflakes-different yet the same 😀

So everyone,”Set your hair free allowing its lock hit you..Lay down barefoot on grass.. soaking in peace…”

Now this is enough, because my extremely valuable thoughts are losing track again and again…

Urgh! My Wild Thoughts are on the Loose!!!

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I think.. I Over think!

Is it bad to think too much about something? People advise me not to think much , just have fun and enjoy the moment. I think I over think. I most certainly do.

What if Cinderella didn’t fall in love with her Prince charming?

What if people start thinking that it’s the inside beauty that matters?

What if Snow white didn’t eat the poison apple and let the old woman have a bite first?

What if Sleeping beauty didn’t touch the spindle?

What if all the money in the world is distributed equally among the world?

What if you’re never born? What if your Mr. Perfect never jumps off the cliff for you?

When I text someone What if he didn’t reply me?

What if he didn’t find me as interesting as her?

All this what-if’s made my day today 🙂 And Finally

What if you didn’t like this post ?:P

If we were a movie…

“Sometimes the only way to catch an uncatchable woman is to offer her a wedding ring”

Yes, I’m a hopeless romantic teenage girl.

I grew up thinking that my love life will be magical, something out of ordinary.

I should blame it on the Indian cinemas. That entire Bollywood chick flick’s which I have seen thousand times again and again which forced me to believe in the whole prince charming concept and those surreal romances. Those melodic music and advertisements everything made me to fall head over heels. So, you see I was programmed to think, believe and look forward to a super romantic love life ahead. I had pictured me falling in love with a guy in endless Bollywood-Situations and I’ve been planning to repeat every single scene I have seen on-screen with him.

I always believed that my life will be like something I had seen in all those movies, where I meet a guy whom I will hate to death and eventually we will become friends from strangers. And before even I realize we will be in love Or something like meeting a bad boy in college and the perfect me changing him completely to bring the best out of him 😛

A romantic beach proposal enjoying the sunset and I will be the right girl whom he will be spending his whole life with…and and happily ever after…

If we were a movie….

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