As I grow old
All I hear is a lonely song…
I know he is out there for me
I wish if he could hold me like before
We had our inhibitions in becoming friends
I guess it’s true what they say
how “just friends” never works out the way
But little did I know that our bond is breaking
And soon we are going to grew apart.
All those happy times are gone
And I know life is about moving on
Yet my heart fails to understand it
You were everything I’ve ever needed
I didn’t mean to hurt you
I swear I have nothing to do with this tangled mess
How does ignoring me possibly do you good?
At what point you will stop trying to be better and admit the truth?
If my feelings are irritating I think you’ve misunderstood.
The more you deny the more I seek your presence
People tell me that I’m wrong for falling in love with you
Trust me I have tried so hard to keep you out of my heart
Now I’m ready to get settled for anything you give
Tell me whether you can be happy without me
I can clearly see the loss in your gleaming eyes too
Don’t you dare say that I’m something that you don’t deserve
Because you had your chance for this but you said nothing at all…
Even when this relationship has gone cold
I can clearly hear your voice
And I miss the way you never looked at me.
Now I’m certain that you didn’t mean a thing because
Every time you said you are addicted with me
It was just the whispers of a cheesy play boy
I still remember the day you walked away
It’s because I was thinking you’d look back at me
It’s not that you abandoned me hurt me the most
It’s the thought and memories that you left behind
I tried to paint my heart without scrapping out your memory
I knew missing someone was a kind of pain
But I never knew what it felt like when someone wouldn’t do the same
I swear I tried my best when you left
But I’m tired of pretending that I’m just fine
Your presence still on my skin
It slice through my heart
I don’t want this feeling
I’m haunted by your smile
You are living in my eyes with that goodbye
Please make it go away
Remember the time when you took me out?
Remember the time you held my hands?
Remember the time we shared endless laughs?
Remember the days we fought badly?
So many memories and I just have to ask
Do you remember it all just like that?
Did you enjoy like the way I do?
I have already choked the last tears that will ever come
People look at me and think I’m mad
That’s because they don’t know you like the way I do
I hope you regret on the goodbye you chose to keep
I hope it floats on your head while you’re trying to sleep
I want to speak until you love me
And then leave because that’s what you did
Don’t you dare say me that you wanted to stay
And try to make me believe that I’m something you’ll miss
Like all the normal people I wanted a closure
A closure that I deserve for loving you so much
I want you to know that I’ll be fine
I want you to know that I don’t need your time
I want you to know that I’m not weak
I want you to know that falling out is not easy as falling in
I want you to know that when you say hello I hear baby
I want you to know that when you say no I hear maybe we can
I want you to know that that one thing
I’d like to see is a promise that at least you’ll remember me
Why am I the only one to hear your voices?
Why am I the only one to see your eyes on the stranger?
Why am I missing you when I clearly know that you don’t miss me?
Why should I miss “us” when you never wanted an “us”?
It’s true that love is blind.
The only regret that I’ve is
I should’ve stolen a kiss on that last night
I should’ve given you a reason to fight
I should’ve done something to made you stay
And I guess here was your reason this whole time
How I loved you enough to let go to chase your dreams and not fight.
I hope the seasons fly past me
So fast for me to cope up with this
the grit and endless hope…