Sugary Dreams

I had an awesome dream last night…And I ain’t got any place better than this to share it  🙂 ❤


Sugar coated clouds

In a bath of red

Peachy Sun setting its rays

Grey Waves

Rolling and Running

Giving me the hour of ultimate peace

Looking out

In that sea of gentle tides

As I wander the beach

World still in motion;

Tides still in reach

The lullabies conceived

By the wind chime

Her soft ripples met my feet

It whispered our names again

Unjumbled and unbothered

Drowning in the depths

Of her innermost self

And for an instant

We shared the secrets of



Oh lady Moon…

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Oh silver moon

My old friend

In the stillness of this lonely night

Peeping through my window

You will see me weak

And I won’t lie

Not to you

You will see me bleed

Too many memories under my skin

Too many riddles hidden within

He is gone

I’m lost

Bring back those nights

Drift my love closer to shore

Light the path once we walked together…



I stood there frozen

Beneath a blanket of dust

Forcing me to fall deeper

I have sunken deeply

In to the black hole of mind

My passion

It roared throughout the night

Stretching its paws

Unaware about my dreams fermenting to wine

Intoxicated on the essence of you

Oh, My love

Rewind the clock; let me breathe

I want to feel the delight of magic love

The magic that cradles the world

Come back; I want to feel it again

The pervading fresh scent of love

The sound of Birds on the meadows

Along with the tune of my heart

The Strokes of West Wind against my pale skin

Come back; I want to feel it again

I want to feel the frigid cold winter

Lifting the lashes of calm waters…


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Letting the wind touch my soul

Standing on the edge of shore

Beginning to contemplate reasons

Will my children tell tales of my love and adventures?


Will those tales bring tears?

Stories and fables of wasted potential…

My life

Spins uncontrollably

I’m broken half of someone handsome

I’m the wet shining sand that he sinks his toes in to

I’m the one he tosses aside from shore to shore

I’ll drift through oceans to cling to him like dust

He will carry bits of me to every end of earth

Even when he didn’t wish to

In reality

I must’ve been a fool

To kill myself to get back at him

Was it a life worth living?

Or a

Life worth forgetting?

Very Inspiring Blogger Award!


Wow.. AGAIN! Another award…

I’m super stunned  and excited by the fact that I have been nominated again (Still don’t believe I’m getting all these award nominations lol).My third nomination.. I’m enjoying all the love ❤
Thanks a lot..

This time I have been nominated by my beautiful friend, Jeni ,this lady has a beautiful blog and never failed to appreciate my works 😛 Always encouraging and kind …all-around awesome person.. Thank you so much for your love ❤

I’m not sure if I’m worthy enough to be called Inspiring but thank you, really.. It means a lot to me…

Here are the rules:

  • Thank the person who nominated you for the award
  • Add the logo to your post
  • Nominate ten (10) bloggers you admire and inform them of the nomination

The free writing challenge – I

I have been nominated by Barrira ( She’s one of my favorites so far) to the free writing challenge,below are the rules for the task:

  1. Open an MS Word document
  2. Set a stop watch or your mobile to 5 minutes or 10 minutes whichever challenge you think you can beat.
  3. You topic is at the foot of this post BUT DO NOT SCROLL DOWN TO SEE IT UNTIL YOU ARE READY WITH A TIMER.
  4. Fill the word doc with as much words as you want. once you began writing do not stop even to turn.
  5. Do not cheat by going back and correcting spellings and grammar with spell check in MS WORD (it is only meant for you to reflect on your own control of sensible thought flow and for you to reflect on your ability to write the right spelling and stick to grammar rules)
  6. You may or may not pay attention to punctuation and capitals. However if you do, it would be best.
  7. At the end of your post write down ‘No. Of words =_____’ so that we would have an idea of how much you can write within the time frame.
  8. Do not forget to copy paste the entire passage on your blog post with a new Topic for your nominees and copy paste these rules with your nominations (at least 5 bloggers).

My word: Eyes

Her pale green eyes

The window to her soul

Our glances hold messages

Of undefined feelings

Oh, her eyes

Inviting me to see

Wanting me to know her deeper

I miss the sparkle in them

Watch her eyes

You can see what I see

You can see the locked out images

You can see where she has been

You can see her hurt

You can see her biggest fears

Watch her closely

Do you see the darkness?

Consuming her?

Or do you recognize the person

She wants her to be?

ps: Does it make any sense?

Time : 4minutes 30 seconds

Words : 90

Now for the nominations :

And the word for you guys is, “innocence”. Anybody else who is up for the challenge, please feel free to join in 🙂

Let go or Be dragged…

Sometimes in life good bye is the only way even though you never wanted to leave..There comes a time when you have to stop crossing oceans for people who wouldn’t even jump puddles for you…It hurts so much more to keep holding to something that isn’t there…So letting it go will be the only option!


Does it make any sense

that I’ve broken my own heart?

 Willing to let myself fall

I gave him everything

I’ve fallen for him

I’ve fallen for his charms

I’ve fallen for his words

Walking around

In broken heels

I can hardly breathe

All my dreams

Getting smaller and smaller

My trust was my last defense

Never in my wildest dream

I did expect this to happen

You made the choice

But I guess it was meant to be

Does it make any sense

that I’ve broken my own heart?

My love for you has no meaning but a blur

I feel bare and naked

Unprotected like a child

No amount of passion

Can ever stop this pain

I have no more intent

This is the last one for you,

There’s nothing left I can do.

You were something that I did virtue,

Even when you never had a clue.

Does it make any sense

that I’ve broken my own heart?

Sometimes letting go is the only way…

Black And White Empty Road

…Until he conquers again


The frowning bright blue sky,

Rusted tangerine colored moon

Goes pale in confusion

The night has come

Clouds painted blue in black

Like a feathered spray

Hovering above in sky.


Trees casting invisible shadows

Lonesome figures creep along

Sleep seems a far off dream

Where have all the stars gone?

Why does the sky bleed?

The blood flows through my veins

Quenching my sun baked soul


Lightning flashed through

The rolling thunder of my dreams

Pouring down with all its might

Washing away my troubles,

Falling freely at last to the ground

Refreshing me with gentle fingers

My feathers brushing against the wind


The rain diminishing quietly

Sun is blazing

Once again there is green ground

And the seven colors

Exhibit its departure

Redefining the beauty

From temporary dull to blue

Until the rain conquers again



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The night stumbled

The grief rushed in currents of air

As he gave his final good bye

Her tears of sorrow,

Washed away by his words.

Huddling under overcoats

His mischievous laugh

His care; his swing of love

His cradle of passion

Shadows of things that used to be

hinders her ability to see

into the loneliness of the starless wintry night.

As she walks along this passage

Wondering where he is now,

Does he stare in to space wondering too?

Is he happy, or lonely as she?

She sat there

Tossing rocks in to the calm shimmery water

Wondering what would have been if they had a chance…

Liebster Award!!

My first award  😀  


I’m not old to blogging.. Hardly a month! I’m super glad now =D
I’m honored. I have been nominated by an amazing of friend of mine, Sulagno, for this Liebster Award.He is jovial, energetic and an extremely pleasant person to deal with.And yeah he is having one of the most attractive,& well written blogs I’ve read in a while.
Thank you so much for all the follows..Valuable comments and likes! It means a lot (:
Stay fab

RULES :                          

So while dealing with anything first we need to know the rules of the game. So before proceeding any further I introduce you with those rules:-

  • Once you are nominated, make a post thanking and linking the person who nominated you.
  • Include the Liebster Award sticker in the post too.
  • Nominate 10 other bloggers who you feel are worthy of this award. Let them know they have been nominated by commenting on one of their posts. You can also nominate the person who nominated you.
  • Answer the ten questions asked to you by the person who nominated you, and make ten questions of your own for your nominees.
  • Lastly, COPY these rules in the post.
    Wish you Happy Blogging all my friends!
    Will be keenly waiting for your answers and comments. 😀

 So I further nominate:

Questions by Sulagno :

# Suppose you spent the whole evening and night studying for a paper next day, engrossed. In the morning some an hour before the exam a friend told you,” Stupid. Dude that paper was postponed last evening. Now we have another exam, though easy one.” What would you feel and how will deal with it?

Dance away cause the exam got postponed 😛 Another exam on the same day? Omg O_o

# If you get the chance, with which celebrity would you like to date with?

This is hard because I have a bunch of celebrity crushes…but I think Matthew Perry. Ever since I watched F.R.I.E.N.D.S. totally in luv wd him.. He is hilarious and nice..Ya May be Christian Bale.. Hmmm Ryan Gosling … Ya Brad Pitt …Offo I can’t decide…

# If you were elected the Ruler of the world, Supreme Power, what will do? Which are the things would make you deeply satisfied? And which are the things you would miss and crave for?

If I rule the world… It will be a paradise heaven.. Every single day will be like a wood stock, everyone can walk around bare foot with flowers in hands.. Music festivals..nd ya no mixing between religion and politics.. I will banish cancer, drugs, home works, hates…I have got a long list 😛 I’m a control freak so I’ll make sure that things get done rather than making it complicated 😛

The things that make me satisfied… My best friends presence: P

I miss him (

Right now I crave for a cup cake & Chocolate ice cream.. And I have got no idea why 😛

# What will you say, when you approached your crush after battling your own inner fears, and he/she says, “ hahaha….you are so funny and sweet. By the way you deserve someone better than me. ” ? (I know it, that line, hurts a lot)

If you don’t want to date me- that’s fine, I get that! It doesn’t matter if you love me back ya not! Atleast have the courage to say that on my face :@  rather than this lame excuses.. what were those?? The times we spent? The talks?? Our arguments? Forever craps??  *sobs* ” …. I know I’m a drama queen !

# What will you do if you encounter a ghost face to face by coincidence?

I’ll try to communicate..I’m so curious about life after death 😛 and I aint afraid of dead people scared of live ones and cats too… eeehhh….

# If you caught a kid (in close relations, may be your kid or future kid, and age below 14) watching porn or nude pictures, what will you say to him or her? (Sorry if anyone felt embarrassed.) 🙂

I think I’ll try to be calm not to freak out! You know, pornography is no longer restricted to the top shelf or “over 18” shops. It’s everywhere on the internet. It’s like road safety. However safe pedestrian crossings are, there’s always a risk a car may jump the light.

And I’ll have an healthy discussion about sex, pornography and internet safety. It’s not like somebody forced him/her to do this. So let him know the perks. I think I can get him back in right track. After all he is my kid.Easily brain-washable 😛

# Suppose you have a crush on your best friend and he or she keeps on asking whom do you like. Its obvious that person will be in a surprise and taken aback if you directly say” I love you or that person is you. ” It can be positive or negative because when they say they don’t mean for themselves. So how will you approach to your crush who asks who is your crush? 

Well… I think I will wait until I get a positive sign from him.. Because losing him will be the end of it. If I’m so sure that it’s just me.. one side.. Then I ll confess my feelings. I don’t want to cheat him putting up a whole best friend only drama… rest is his decision.. I’ll let him choose!

# How will you react if a call came from an unknown number at 2 am local time telling that you have been nominated for the Nobel Prize and among the top 20 nominees? (PS: Here everyone is a blogger and writing is passion so the Literature section is always open) lol 😀

Hmm.. Yeah at first I’ll be dumbstruck and excited. Jumping around…Dancing like maniac.. Who cares if it is 2 a.m. ya 6? Embrace the moment 😛

# What is your opinion on Love at First Sight? Does it exist or not?

I don’t actually believe in love at first sight. It’s just attraction…no matter how many stories we read, how many movies we’ve seen. It’s just hormones not love. In order for you to love someone you should know them personally.. But I do believe in “love” and “first love” ❤

# Suppose you were born in those days of colonial rule. What will you do as a person in order to inspire people putting an end to the period ruled as slaves and fight back their total freedom?

I would’ve fought along with slave abolitionists against slavery. I would’ve tried to make them understand being poor is not an accident even that is man-made which can be removed together as a whole by our actions and being a peaceful slave will never bring them good. Will inspire them to be strong to work together for the best!

So I am done with all.

~Now, the questions for the nominated are :-

  1. Describe yourself in one word.
  2. What have you always wanted? Did you get it?
  3. State 3 hidden facts about yourself.
  4. What was the weirdest prank call you ever did?
  5. If you could change one thing about yourself, what will you change?
  6. Your favorite author/poet and why? One book you would recommend to me.
  7. Sweet or savory? TV show you secretly enjoy
  8. What is your biggest daily obsession?
  9. Do you think that it is possible to have a deep friendship with a man/woman? Just friendship, nothing else?
  10. What is on your mind right now?

Will be keenly waiting for your answers. Good luck and take care 🙂 Stay blessed =D



Blanket the newborn

No longer a chrysalis

It has flown to another land

Lost to time and space

Embrace the change…


Heart flutters

Wings dragging,


Like a deer in trap;

Amongst the flowers,

And above the oceans


Another butterfly gets his wings

Takes refuge in the sky


He is like him

I can feel it

We touch but we do not embrace

Our eyes lock but we do not gaze.

Though it smells like love

All I feel is pseudo love

The abandon cocoon of love


If I could transform my pains

If I was him rather than the cocoon

I want to fly high

Butterfly free

And let my colors explode

Wild Thoughts! #1

There is always a crashing point or threshold, initially it was difficult taking me out of wreck, but now I write.. As I write with my half chewed pencil in this lonely night, my heart thumping..  I never thought I will write so much in two weeks.. It’s like a way of cleaning up. Writing has always given me a sense of satisfaction..It is like a drug I can’t live without.

(I’m not bragging. Just stating a fact)

I know my thoughts are wilder than my dreams. Getting lost in the wild has its own benefits. It’s something you don’t get by sitting in room and watching television, it’s nothing but EXPERIENCE. And here comes my questions: P

I always wondered how mirage’s can fool me again and again every single time. How can my eyes, my intellect be wrong? And you know what is worse than that?

I used to feel everyone are unique but the more closely I scan meticulously the more similarities are disclosed. May be everyone are different in the way they think, the things they do and stuff. But deep inside everyone are amazingly talented actors, their versatility reflects from the fact that they change roles ever single minute and every single seconds. And People’s love for romance, humor, love and sadness are immense. Fooling one another and faking the love is their favorite past time.

I wonder what the world is… I always wanted to ditch the pretenses that we live in and I don’t get why the world wants us to conform to its norm. Why not abandon the fakeness and toxicities behind? Why can’t people set aside their prejudices and listen?

Ultimately, we’re all snowflakes-different yet the same 😀

So everyone,”Set your hair free allowing its lock hit you..Lay down barefoot on grass.. soaking in peace…”

Now this is enough, because my extremely valuable thoughts are losing track again and again…

Urgh! My Wild Thoughts are on the Loose!!!




I stood there


Feeling like

It was nothing

My night mares


When I wake up

I’m lost


His dreams

They were bright



I’m afraid

I can’t fight forever

I’m chained

You watch me gasp for breath

You watch me stand in storms

You watch me blank out

In my whispers,

Silent breaths

I’ll tell you how things were

I’ll pretend that it was real

My empty lies!!!

Glowing Embers


Cold and shivering

Scared of life

You left me alone in shivering winter

With a broken soul

The air is stale

I stay captivated by the echoes of silence

I gleefully wander the infinite path,

Leaving memories in burning flames

Ashes to ashes

My whole life has turned to embers

Lying beneath the star lit sky,

Cradled by earth

Upon a barren ground

I’m never content

With life’s endless drama

Always wanting more…

Storm Surprise !!!


Sitting on bed

On the verge of sleep

My skin pressed to the glass

Air turns heavy

Clouds sweeping sky

Sunset fading slowly into stars

Trees casting shadows

Frigid screams

Mighty thunder

Silver fire

The cold numbing my nose

Drenching my soul with showers

The drops shattering like pearls

Lonesome figures creep along

Pattering, Thuds, Pour

Rejoicing in the chaos

My frown turning to a smile

The spring storm begins

Mist rises from ground

Chill settles in my bones

Dampening my spirits

Frozen with snow!

Ode to woman

Is she something for you?

Is she a readymade machine?

When she’s older, things will change

She’ll learn to suffer pain

Till the point when she won’t know her

She isn’t made to fight

She’ll never be in power

She’s told to settle down

And be a flower

You say her to lower her eyes

You want her to do your works

You want her to never complaint

You want her to spent whole life

In feet of you.

Is she something for you?

Is it because she prefers comfort rather than flaunt?

Is it because she prefers you rather her?

Is it because she prefers family than herself?

Depressing? Is it not?

Can you clarify? Is she something for you?

 Break the cycle

We’re all same…

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(: Smile :)

You gave me a reason to smile

You gave me the wrinkles worth having

Five years have past

Yet your smile remained still

Embracing me

like the ripples in water

I wondered for so long

The reason behind your smile

It’s such a mystery to me

I adore and yet envy thee

Your sparkling eyes

And gleaming grin

You’re insane

And I love it

I wish to be your smile

Like a creamy Sunday delight!!!

Her Illusions

As she walk in that lonely path

Passing through the endless crowd

She met two eyes

It was different from those all,

who walked past her

They stood there gazing each other

And the whole crowd stopped moving

Is this love?

She’s still dreaming

She’s probably going crazy

She closed her eyes

She can feel that their world

 growing bigger and bigger

When he reciprocate her feelings

She can feel the rain drops

dripping in her stomach

He showered her

with endless memories

Time flew away

She didn’t know when

Truth becomes lies

And promises becomes words…

He walked away

And their love become her only regret

She sits back and feels as if

Their moments have been fading away

And their worlds has been collapsing

Right in front of them

Even without his presence

They are grabbing away her life

How many illusions she has to pass before reaching him?

Sometimes she feel like letting it go

But then he stands right before her eyes

And making her realize

That they weren’t illusions

One day these walls

 Will crumble

One day the door

Will swing wide open

And when the day comes

Remember he is meant to fly higher,

And he will fly back towards her

no one can take that away…


I know you won’t stay

I know you’re tired

But tears of hope

Filled my heart

Longing you to stay

I want to say those words

You are longing to hear

But these scars in heart

They won’t seem to heal

The pains you made

Are overwhelmingly clear

I get broken a thousand times

And still you didn’t seem to hear

I have spend endless nights

Reminiscing your smile

I tried to clear the mess

All my efforts went useless

I know it’s difficult to live without you

But letting you was the only option left

I think.. I Over think!

Is it bad to think too much about something? People advise me not to think much , just have fun and enjoy the moment. I think I over think. I most certainly do.

What if Cinderella didn’t fall in love with her Prince charming?

What if people start thinking that it’s the inside beauty that matters?

What if Snow white didn’t eat the poison apple and let the old woman have a bite first?

What if Sleeping beauty didn’t touch the spindle?

What if all the money in the world is distributed equally among the world?

What if you’re never born? What if your Mr. Perfect never jumps off the cliff for you?

When I text someone What if he didn’t reply me?

What if he didn’t find me as interesting as her?

All this what-if’s made my day today 🙂 And Finally

What if you didn’t like this post ?:P

Unfinished Dreams

“What happens  when thoughts and  emotions meet?”

She’s told to stay strong, keep fighting

But they don’t understand

She’s already lost.

When he left to fight for King

She had no choice to stop him

When he returned

It wasn’t him

It was a shell he used to be.

She’s counting all the time away

Just waiting for everything to end

Forever seems like a long time

I’m unsure what the reason is

I turn around but I can’t seem to let go

What is reality?

And what is dream?

She looks in the mirror

And burst in to tears

His voice pounding in her ears

Empty and lost in life

Sometimes I wonder

If there is someone else out there

Like her.

They say open your eyes

She’s forced to see the darkness

He doesn’t hear her

The darkness shuts out everything.

Come back..

As I grow old

All I hear is a lonely song…

I know he is out there for me

I wish if he could hold me like before

We had our inhibitions in becoming friends

I guess it’s true what they say

how “just friends” never works out the way

But little did I know that our bond is breaking

And soon we are going to grew apart.

All those happy times are gone

And I know life is about moving on

Yet my heart fails to understand it

You were everything I’ve ever needed

I didn’t mean to hurt you

I swear I have nothing to do with this tangled mess

How does ignoring me possibly do you good?

At what point you will stop trying to be better and admit the truth?

If my feelings are irritating I think you’ve misunderstood.

The more you deny the more I seek your presence

People tell me that I’m wrong for falling in love with you

Trust me I have tried so hard to keep you out of my heart

Now I’m ready to get settled for anything you give

Tell me whether you can be happy without me

I can clearly see the loss in your gleaming eyes too

Don’t you dare say that I’m something that you don’t deserve

Because you had your chance for this but you said nothing at all…

Even when this relationship has gone cold

I can clearly hear your voice

And I miss the way you never looked at me.

Now I’m certain that you didn’t mean a thing because

Every time you said you are addicted with me

It was just the whispers of a cheesy play boy

I still remember the day you walked away

It’s because I was thinking you’d look back at me

It’s not that you abandoned me hurt me the most

It’s the thought and memories that you left behind

I tried to paint my heart without scrapping out your memory

I knew missing someone was a kind of pain

But I never knew what it felt like when someone wouldn’t do the same

I swear I tried my best when you left

But I’m tired of pretending that I’m just fine

Your presence still on my skin

It slice through my heart

I don’t want this feeling

I’m haunted by your smile

You are living in my eyes with that goodbye

Please make it go away

Remember the time when you took me out?

Remember the time you held my hands?

Remember the time we shared endless laughs?

Remember the days we fought badly?

So many memories and I just have to ask

Do you remember it all just like that?

Did you enjoy like the way I do?

I have already choked the last tears that will ever come

People look at me and think I’m mad

That’s because they don’t know you like the way I do

I hope you regret on the goodbye you chose to keep

I hope it floats on your head while you’re trying to sleep

I want to speak until you love me

And then leave because that’s what you did

Don’t you dare say me that you wanted to stay

And try to make me believe that I’m something you’ll miss

Like all the normal people I wanted a closure

A closure that I deserve for loving you so much

I want you to know that I’ll be fine

I want you to know that I don’t need your time

I want you to know that I’m not weak

I want you to know that falling out is not easy as falling in

I want you to know that when you say hello I hear baby

I want you to know that when you say no I hear maybe we can

I want you to know that that one thing

I’d like to see is a promise that at least you’ll remember me

Why am I the only one to hear your voices?

Why am I the only one to see your eyes on the stranger?

Why am I missing you when I clearly know that you don’t miss me?

Why should I miss “us” when you never wanted an “us”?

It’s true that love is blind.

The only regret that I’ve is

I should’ve stolen a kiss on that last night

I should’ve given you a reason to fight

I should’ve done something to made you stay

And I guess here was your reason this whole time

How I loved you enough to let go to chase your dreams and not fight.

I hope the seasons fly past me

So fast for me to cope up with this

 the grit and endless hope…



To start a day with!

  • “Get busy living or get busy dying.”-Stephen King,The Shawshank Redemption
  • “My idea of good company…is the company of clever, well-informed people, who have a great deal of conversation; that is what I call good company.’  ‘You are mistaken,’ said he gently, ‘that is not good company, that is the best.”
    ― Jane Austen, Persuasion
  • “I can’t go back to yesterday because I was a different person then.”-Lewis Carroll,Alice in Wonderland
  • “When we love, we always strive to become better than we are. When we strive to become better than we are, everything around us becomes better too.”-Paulo Coelho,The Alchemist
  • “Blood of my blood and bone of my bone. You carry me within ye, Claire, and ye canna leave me now, no matter what happens. You are mine, always, if ye will it or no, if ye want me or nay. Mine, and I wilna let ye go.” -Diana Gabaldon, Outlander
  • “There is neither happiness nor unhappiness in this world; there is only the comparison of one state with another. Only a man who has felt ultimate despair is capable of feeling ultimate bliss. It is necessary to have wished for death in order to know how good it is to live…..the sum of all human wisdom will be contained in these two words: Wait and Hope.” – Alexandre Dumas,The count of Monte Cristo
  • “To understand just one life, you have to swallow the world.” -Salman Rushdie, Midnight’s Children
  • “I am half agony, half hope…” -Jane Austen, Persuasion
  • “If you live to be a hundred, I want to live to be a hundred minus one day so I never have to live without you.”-A.A. Milne,Winnie the Pooh
  • “A mind needs books as a sword needs a whetstone, if it is to keep its edge.” -George R.R Martin,A game of thrones
  • “If you want to know what a man’s like, take a good look at how he treats his inferiors, not his equals.”-J.K.Rowling, HP:Goblet of fire

If we were a movie…

“Sometimes the only way to catch an uncatchable woman is to offer her a wedding ring”

Yes, I’m a hopeless romantic teenage girl.

I grew up thinking that my love life will be magical, something out of ordinary.

I should blame it on the Indian cinemas. That entire Bollywood chick flick’s which I have seen thousand times again and again which forced me to believe in the whole prince charming concept and those surreal romances. Those melodic music and advertisements everything made me to fall head over heels. So, you see I was programmed to think, believe and look forward to a super romantic love life ahead. I had pictured me falling in love with a guy in endless Bollywood-Situations and I’ve been planning to repeat every single scene I have seen on-screen with him.

I always believed that my life will be like something I had seen in all those movies, where I meet a guy whom I will hate to death and eventually we will become friends from strangers. And before even I realize we will be in love Or something like meeting a bad boy in college and the perfect me changing him completely to bring the best out of him 😛

A romantic beach proposal enjoying the sunset and I will be the right girl whom he will be spending his whole life with…and and happily ever after…

If we were a movie….


Loneliness that haunts me…

Tears are words that NEED to be written -Paulo Coelho

My life like many ppl…is just one constant battle between wanting to be alone, but not wanting to be lonely…Need a break from this loneliness that is consuming me as whole…So I took a paper and pen… and this makes my loneliness a counter productive action…

It’s only daytime here in my darkness
with only loneliness as company
I listen to the silence
since no one can hear me.
It’s still daytime in my darkness
with a sun of black coal
my tears fall in a corner
and my silent cries echo.
I’m sitting here alone
In this empty room
which keeps on getting emptier,
Only the light from the street is shining.
And then a loud call for help,
And everything turns black,
I try thinking of something or someone
to help maself out of this,
But nothing comes to my head,
I’m alone…
He came to visit me again today,
I wish that he would stay away,
I didn’t ask for him to come,
I didn’t ask him where he’s from,
I’m happy when he isn’t here.
It’s hard to smile when he appears,
I hope he leaves me soon,
He fills my life with gloom,
Sometimes his visit’s only brief,
A moment spent with no relief.
Sometimes he stays for quite a while,
Unwanted company to live with
Me, then I try to walk away,
But he just wants to come and stay,
The loneliness which haunts me again and again,
Throughout my life….

Butterfly Kisses

"memories are so two-faced..
  Sometimes they hug you so tightly like a long lost friend,
       then the next minute
              they're ripping you apart like your worst enemy..."girl-3

You are my best friend,
Your smile like a silver bell:
Light, pure & free;
You were like the hours of happiness
That  happened only to me.
Lies are all you seem to say,
That it hurts more each day.
That’s why I wish you to go away,
So that I wouldn’t be in pain, anyway.
I still remember those times
when we were
building our dreams
in a sand castle.
But, who would have thought
that time
is like those waves?
Who would have thought
our dreams
could be severed by an hour-glass?
As I walk through this hill
that used to be our playground,
I begin to wonder
Where do those old smiles lie?
Where do those laughter and tears hide?
When will I find them again?
I stare at this spilling hour-glass
Time flies so fast
The things that I used to have
are all gone
If those Pink candy canes and butterfly kisses
Could fulfil all my wishes
Sliding down the rainbow into a sea of gold
To a magical place where we never grow old
I don’t think I’ll ever understand
Just what happened to us
How did two so happy and free
become closed off and unloved?
Now as the sun goes down
I’ll say a prayer
Wishing perhaps for you
But really, life’s not that fair….